Category Archives: Struggle

Steady in the Storm: In Every Season

A New Season The leaves on the Japanese Maple outside my office twitched under the falling raindrops. I pulled on a sweatshirt and peered through the mini-blinds. It sure doesn’t look like May, I thought. A thick grey veil lay across the sky threatening a full day of rain. I didn’t mind. No rush for summer to arrive. Summer meant change. And change is difficult. It makes me melancholy. Irritable. And this year, the changes are going to be big: my daughter will graduate from high school, spread her wings, and fly off on her own; my parents will be forced to swallow a higher dose of the grief that age and illness have prescribed; a friend pinned by unexpected pain will face an uncertain future; and this year all my … Continue reading

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Trusting God in Painful Places

Do you trust God? If you had asked me a week ago if I trusted God, I probably would have said, “Yes” without much hesitation. I mean God has taken me through some lengthy trust-testing trials that have demanded a lot of me and my family. No doubt about it. But recently, God challenged that ready “Yes” response. You see, it’s easy to say we trust God, until the life of a loved one is on the line. All week, I’ve been host to a painful knot in my stomach over some awful circumstances hanging over a loved one. I’m not going to lie, it’s been tough, really tough. Many mornings, I’ve awakened to wave upon wave of fear-soaked adrenaline surging through my first semi-conscious thoughts. It has been a battle to get through each day without my mind submerged in the fear, … Continue reading

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Desert Wanderings: Another Lap in the Desert

Do you have a painful theme in your life that never seems to end? Have you ever been afraid there will never be a resolution to your pain, no happy ending to that ever elusive quest for closure? Today my family is taking another lap in the desert of unemployment, and after over twenty years on and off of this theme, (mostly on) I am tired. Bone tired. You’d think over time it would get easier, but this time around the track I’ve been struggling to stay “all in” mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Maybe its mid life. Maybe its hormones. Maybe its parenting a volitile teen, juggling a job, and maintaining a marriage. I’m not sure, but sometimes life stretches ahead and I can’t see anything besides the heat waves … Continue reading

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